“Body and soul
Spirit and truth
Hidden in You, Lord Jesus.”
–Watermark, Hidden in You
I took the above picture two years ago at Maymont Park when I was in town auditioning for Richmond Ballet. He definitely has made this place my home.
Today I have been rereading my journals from that scary season of life, but I was challenged by what I found. I remember how scared I was. I remember the tears. But why is it that I forgot the faith, hope, and security I had in the midst of it? I wrote things like, “Open the door for Your glory. My heart doesn’t know what is best, but I trust You and I KNOW You will provide” and “God, I’m going to trust you will empower and I’m going to keep my hands off my future” and “Your beauty and vision for my life FAR surpasses these tiny waves I face today” and “Fear, you can’t have me! I’ve seen Jesus this morning!!!”
So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.
2 Corinthians 4:16-18
My past is challenging my present to have the kind of boldness and trust I once had.
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.
I am approaching the rest of this week and the next season of recovery remembering these things. That He has proven Himself faithful. That He is my strength and He is with me. Waiting is for His glory. He has a plan and it is good. He prepared the way for me to get this far, and He won’t stop now.
I can be confident in that.
Commit your works to the Lord, and your thoughts will be established.
By giving Him the things in my life that bring doubts or fears, He renews my mind and establishes my thoughts in Him where there is peace and joy.
I’m reminded of the grace that allows me to know who God is. So thankful for the price He paid on the cross, taking on all of my sin and giving me access to approach His throne boldly. In awe that His Spirit lives in me to counsel my heart, convict me of my sin, and intercede on my behalf. By His grace I can feel His presence and hear His voice. Thankful that I don’t know everything and must rely on Him, and that I CAN rely on Him. He is faithful to my heart and never ever gives up on me. Amazing.
(Side note*** This Friday is Good Friday and also it is the day of my doctor’s appointment. I am praying that the doctor will tell me that my foot has healed and I can start walking without my crutches and my boot. I love that my appointment is on Good Friday. I picture putting my brokenness, shame, and pain to death on the cross with Jesus. He is victorious over death and gives me new life!)